I've begun writing this post at least 3 times, but can never find the words. I just dont know how to wrap my brain around it all. I guess I will just do my best at explaining emotions that I dont quite know what to do with yet. I'll try to make this short.
Luke arrived safely early Tuesday morning and, as far as I can tell, has hit the ground running since then. He has meetings and other such things to prepare them for when they move out to their real destination...Iraq. That will be sometime in the next 3 weeks I would think.
I've talked to him on the phone about 4 times since he left, and he sounds like he's keeping busy. He sounds good, though. It's hard to know if I like that he's keeping busy or whether I want him sitting around missing me. I suppose he can do both...be busy and miss me, right? I like to think so. The strangest thing about it all is talking to him while I'm feeding the Bubba lunch, and he's getting ready to head to bed.
Brayden is doing fine. He is catching on to the fact that he's stuck with just me, but mostly just goes about his day like normal. We do play the DVD of Daddy reading bedtime stories right before he goes to bed, and he gets up and points at the TV and says, "Dada" so I know he knows whose reading to him. I'm sure he is quite curious, though, about why Dada is living in our TV now...We'll explain when he gets older...
I'm probably not faring quite as well as the Bubba, but thats to be expected. Sometimes I'm numb and sometimes I'm...not numb I guess. Like I said, it's very hard to wrap my brain around all of this. Sometimes my day seems to go by fast, and sometimes I cant believe its just Friday. Thats to be expected. I'm anxious for my upcoming visit to Illinois where I'll get to see both my parents and Luke's. It will be nice to be out of a house where I see Luke everywhere and a routine that he still seems so much apart of. God is truly providing for us, though. He has provided me with great friends here and across the country who know what I'm going through firsthand, and that is a huge help.
Thus endeth the update...and my ranting. We love all of you!
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And in the same way, I don't know how to send comfort and encourgagement your way in just a simple comment on a blog, but I do want you to know that I am lifting you, B, and Luke in prayer.
I don't know firsthand how you feel right now, but I'm glad you have a great support system in place, a faith in our Father that sustains you through times like these, and the precious smile of that sweet little boy to get you through the lonely times.
Hugs to you!
Denise
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